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Why do I  have to hear stay alive and be okay from a song?? Why do I have to hear dont cry and i'll be with you from a song?? When I feel this compression in my chest, why do I have to be brave on my own?? Why?? I dont want to. 2018/6/21

Every day is hard when somebody's messing with your head and you are kind of worried and concerned about your mental health You listen to your dad shouting, cursing with rage That's when you wish you were gone, That's when you wish you were Dead. No money, No love is enough to satisfy commence Long nights with you and your deep thought and it's hard to come to your sense Is it just anxiousness or I can't control my head? It's that time again where I hope I was Dead. Each time I go through these kind of thought I think about the lives that we've lost I'm a disappointment I know and it's making me insane. I wish that I could stop breathing at once, now and then. Just cut me up and take what's left got no soul to preach, no life to save. but He came up close to offer himself we almost met once His name is Death How many liters of tears I need to flow? How much more? I need to learn and grow? How much heartless do I ne...

15/12/2014 Wow! I'm surprised you actually tried to kill me I guess not cuz it was one of your dream I'm scared of heights, I'm at top and I'm screaming You push me down, I cannot believe what I'm seeing, Dad? You're supposed to be my first love and my first mentor You've gotta pick me up and be there after what I've been through I guess you regret I'm your daughter not a SON If   you don't like me just say it and then I'm gone. (I think you still regret the day that I was born) Father Father Father I don't want you to be a murder If you didn't want me, then why the fuck did you fathered me? I see other's father kissing on their daughters cheeks She says "I'm so embarrassed" but she says "Im used to it" You've said many bad things to me but I was always by your side You tried to hurt and you're my father I can't deny. Its just sad to see you fail both being HUSBAND and a D...

The way you look at me Makes me wanna be better even I'm not Even I’ve gone too far to be seen again I keep the feeling to myself I suffocate inside I’m trembling with my words Shaking with my lies Never tried to be your cuz you’re not really mine Cuz you must have to be someone, other guy You seem to be happy with your girl But it’s okay I will make you mine But maybe not this time Cuz you were not mine to take Everything I wanted was just a lie Exchanging our fate to separate Silence overflows the pain Now it’s time to stop Time to end this “one sided love”

Guess I’m scared to be a grown up even that I am Afraid to take responsible, More than I can Scared to Develop emotion, feeling that could hurt Hurt you for nothing and more than it should Wake up early morning and go to different college Work your ass off and not get what you deserve An underpaid salary just to meet the ends Gotta appreciate what I have, I have made amends With myself even thought I doubt myself But I’m living off of what I made don’t need no one’s help. Don’t know why I get so lonely even with rooms of people They talk too much, I don’t understand, its all clitter-clatter I get anxious all of a sudden, I feel like I should die Who am I talking to? Myself? From whom I can’t even hide A figure of hate and regret whom her parent don’t even trust Forget the haters from other side, push me with a thrust My heartbeats so hard sometimes I just want it to stop I distant myself with people cuz I don’t want em hurt A rush of senses I co...