Trying (At least Tried.)

In this world, I have to fight for what’s right fully mine
And show the world that I’m good and I’m fully fine
I’ve been left alone
Some time I’m lost and then I’m fine
It’s not enough
That is why I am always trying
Sometimes you gotta hurt people to make em right
So you put up a fight
And never talk em rest of your life
They take to much time to realize
Their fault, their guilt  kill em inside

Annoying their self point of view
Do you even know me to tell me what to do?
I always tried to be the best for for you
<< I’ve learned to cope with the crap you put me through>>>
And I'm always trying,This is how  grew.

How could I forget the days you told me to die
It was 5th,Saturday on the September night
I remember that look in your eyes…..
I sat whole night crying,(Bang) banging! In the room..
 try to pull myself together, the little happy girl she was lost there forever…

If I start doing what you do
What’s the difference between me and you??
No, I wont be you, ill make thing right
All you ever did was pick a reason to fight
Thou I listened, I listened even gritted my teeth
I denied, denied sound my heartbeat
Thou I break , I’d break down I listened
I did listened till  your mouth hurt and your cursing
Sitting tight in the floor cursing my life again
Throwing smile to world even in this excoriating pain
Breathing in breathing out  breaking in then I shout
Breaking things breaking bones wishing life was sticks and stones

Again, In this world I have to fight for what’s right fully mine
And show the world that I'm good and I’m fully fine
Ive been left alone I'm adjusting with my life
It’s not enough
I'm exhausted that I'm always trying
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