As I wish it is my last breath

the heavy air that flows in and as hard it is to inhale I wish it is my last breath.
The heaviness in the atmosphere and the energy of the room as if im inhaling some poison, the pain in chest that doesnt cease to stop and work in the lungs that has hard time itself.
I saw your silhouette from the distance, I couldnt believe my eyes
I had to to double check myself and couldnt believe my reality
When I was sure it was you, my gut filled in with disgust
My body stopped breathing for a while, somehow I collected myself
As I walked besides, behind you, I couldnt help by loathe myself.
When my eyes stopped cursing you, gasp "yep! Im gonna kill myself"
I cant recongnize the person youve become, I dont want you in my life
my life immaculately destructed right before my eyes
Should I be thanking you as the time I gave myself is creeping in
I got one year left, I despise myself nothing change in between
more time passes by, I loathe the air we breath it in
maybe because its the same air or the blood I dont want running it


I leave with the wrecking heart and wrenching gut behind
the more reasons to hate you now
To think it would get better, I was just an idiot


As difficult as it is to breathe in because of the dense air coming in, I wish this was my final breath.

The heavy air and the intensity in the room make me feel as though I'm breathing in poison. My chest also hurts constantly, and my lungs are working hard.


2023

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